I just want my life...

I love moments of worship alone as much, if not more, than corporate worship. Anybody with me?

Anyone who knows me well enough knows I'm a Phil Wickham fan. One of the first songs I ever heard of his was "Tethered" about four or five years ago and the chorus struck my heart. 

Everything I am

I throw into Your hands.

I just want my life to ever be entwined with You

Tethered to Your heart.

I just want my soul to ever stand in awe of You

Tethered to Your heart

Ooh, tethered to Your heart

Being at the stage of life I am at, it is all the more important for me to remain tethered to Christ. These are the moments that are critical. These are the moments where we establish our framework for how we want God to be in our adult lives. 

I don't know about you, but I often get so undone with the way I am and my faults that it becomes too much for even me. I literally "throw" it on God. If He were anything less than who He is, He probably would have been like "she's the nuttiest thing I made". He would, by my opinion, be right. :) 

But I have to. It is the way God wishes for it to be. He wants us to communicate our desires, our needs, and our hopes. Every single one to be committed to the throne of Grace. When I think about how much I wish for all those things in my life to be readily handed over, I think of this quote. 

"I have held many things in my hands, 

     and I have lost them all,

but whatever I have placed in God's hands,

     that I still possess."

Corrie Ten Boom-

I hold a lot in my hands. I have lost a few things. More than I care to admit. It's not that I wouldn't "lose" them if God were in control, but His peace often does make more things seem less like losses. 

To be real with you, it is how I have viewed things in my life as losses that reveals the selfish nature within. And that nature affects how others around me perceive me, see me, and are heedlessly treated by me. That last one truly breaks my heart and I want that for absolutely no one I know and see. Every single person I encounter regularly means the world to me.

So I pray these prayers over them too. 

Give me a heart of full surrender God. May my disappointments be gains initiated by You for my growth. May I not focus in hard on everything and become so self-focused that I become selfish. Help me to relinquish all control. As you grow me in this area, please also break apart the pieces of this woman you don't want representing you and replace them with your perfectly chiseled pieces. Help every desire of mine to be for you and for your plan in my life. Please help me to place my well-laid plans and desires at the throne of your grace. Bring about your will for me. Direct every desire in a godly direction and protect the heart as it is the "Wellspring of life". Encourage every godly hope, give me a heart of true encouragement and action, and permanently silence every doubt.

"But let him ask in faith, with no

     doubting, for he who doubts is

like a wave of the sea driven and

     tossed by the wind."

James 1:6-

In the name of Jesus,

Amen.

Tether yourself to Christ today!