Blind Resolution

I’m caught in a tumult

Of reckless hope and my shame.

Why does God own me

Or give me a name?

I’m bound up inside;

Alone in my writhing.

I wonder silently why

My spirit’s contriving!

I pray without answer

But I speak with no voice;

I can’t make the words come,

There is not a choice.

Want I a purpose

And a way to explore.

What I seek is guidance

I know there is more!

One answer though given

Not much but it’s sure.

When I pray comes a healing

A peace that is more.

Then in my prayer

I come to a gate.

A choice there before me,

To give or to take.

Symbolized it did

Every problem I had;

But also an answer

To give or be sad.

If closed it remained

Alone I would be

Open it I did,

And I’d finally see.

What I would find

Is not my own will;

But a blind resolution

To follow silently still.

The path God will pave,

As I choose to let go,

Will gradually grow clear

My life it will show.

I don't know all details

But my soul says it’s right

The more oft I follow,

Will be when I find sight!

-Maddy-

Poetry is simply my way of expressing myself. It may be a little old school, but it puts invisible images and pictures of emotions into words that can't otherwise be pictured. Most cases involve other people's work, as I am not certain how qualified my poetry is to paint apt and accurate word pictures for readers to imagine. 

Hopefully, though, a reader can imagine this in my simple excuse for poetic imagery. :)

 Keep the feelings I tried to portray close in mind as you sift through your slowly growing store of life experience. There have been those moments where you have felt these things. Uncertainty, impatience, anxiety, hopelessness, weakness, blindness, your unintentional abandonment of inner wisdom... and the list could go on. 

 These are the result of our general sinful nature and also a human weakness, doubt, and pride (my biggest failure). In our weakness, though, isn't Christ made strong?

Sometimes yes. 

We have to give over that ground. This is the ground we want to hold and physically control. This ground could be blessings, gifts, time, people, and experiences. We can't control reactions with any one of these things, but our uncertainty in those situations is the very opportunity God can use and has used with many people to show how strong He can be in their lives. 

Don't try to control every aspect of your life. There will be things you find hard and difficult to control. Give all to Christ and do not hold back. Stop taking control and give it, and in doing so you will stop dreading this life and begin at last living it in peace. 

Sounds desperate and doubtingly simple. Seems unbelievably easy even. I had a time where I didn't believe any of this mumbo jumbo about peace and giving all my worries over to God. Let me tell you... He's waiting. Give Him the chance to show Himself strong. 

~John 14:27~